“It was too big for him, that was the truth. It had never really progressed, it had simply fallen apart into a series of fragments.”
~ George Orwell
I thought I’d write about not having nothing much to say. An odd topic for a blog, to be sure.
But there you have it.
This wordless inertia is not the same as writer’s block, as I have plenty of ideas, I always do. More than one work in progress. I feel distracted, but always am; the world itself an unending distraction of unresolved problems, rising tensions, and I’ve often found writing is a good cure for distraction. Writing grounds me, it can be a form of meditation, an escape, I’ll admit.
It’s easy to throw some words on a blank page, fiction-up when reality sucks.
But those times of distraction, when I can get into a world-building mania and think I’m onto something new, invent new characters who deserve to live beyond that initial chapter, tend to….fizzle.
But that’s not what is happening now.
It’s also not the same as giving the work a rest. Where you work like crazy, stuff the work in progress in a drawer, then come back to it with fresh eyes. This “resting phase” is part of writing, essential so you can read your work from a reader’s perspective. But I don’t feel like the writer in me is resting.
It really may be nothing more than the sad, cold, gray fog of November settling down all around. The naked boredom of trees, their leaves shed like playing cards scattered on the table at the end of a game. The players moved on to pretty much nowhere.
My writer’s brain has entered a phase of literary hibernation. To avoid a complete shut down, I’m spending lots of time looking at visual art, allowing my eyes to linger on color and form — day-dreams — instead of constantly world-wording. At some point, the visual fragments I’m collecting may reassemble themselves into poems or prose.
There’s no way to tell whether that will be a day from now — or several months down the road.